Scene: Tuesday night, walking to the bus following a post-class trip to Clyde Common. M was at Teardrop with a friend beforehand, so he’s at 5 cocktails to my two. I have been stressing out about school & worrying that carving out time for school will mean neglecting M (and others, of course, but we [...]
Archive for October, 2008
Xmas card blogging
Posted in personal, relationships on October 30, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Loop loop loop
Posted in personal on October 28, 2008 | 2 Comments »
Looking back, it seems that I ponder, and thus write, much more when I’m feeling melancholy. And that I loop over the same damn stuff over and over. Which is probably a) dull and b) frustrating for everyone (uh, Heather and Sara).
What is it about being melancholy that inspires writing? Or is it that describing [...]
Spiral
Posted in personal, pondering on October 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I wish that being tired didn’t lead so often to a looping spiral of overwhelm that nearly always becomes a swirling mass of worry. Inevitably, I get caught up in mulling over one (or more) recent interactions and end up all worked up. And it almost always turns out that I’m overthinking and have made [...]
Reminders
Posted in personal, pondering, relationships on October 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
So, okay, it’s a little weird to have archived shards of yourself scattered around, existing frozen in time on the vast (and, haha, totally public) space of the internet. And when someone pops up on, say, the message board that you frequent, and they’re clearly in that same horrible place that you were, lo these [...]
Expectation
Posted in personal, pondering, relationships on October 21, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
You should be loved and appreciated for what you are, rather than what someone else hopes you might be.
I believe I can legitimately claim to have inhabited all 4 possibilities in this equation.
Dinner Log
Posted in personal, relationships on October 6, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
M made dinner last night, as has been the case for most nights that we’ve not gone out for the last two-three months. As usual, I provided low-skill assistance, chopping and handing things, and generally hanging out in the kitchen so that I can claim that I “helped” with dinner.
Dinner consisted of a nice spicy [...]
Upon Return
Posted in cocktails, personal on October 5, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
So, I’m back from Italy and Germany, back to work, and have started a new quarter. I’ve also got a bit of a cold, presumably passed from M’s roommate, to M, to me. M’s down too, and he’s significantly more ill than I am, which is fun. 1
On the plus side, everyone was healthy for [...]
